What this is...

I have sat here for hours on end on different days for over a year trying to figure out what I wanted this blog to be. I know I needed to start writing but I did not know how to start. My original intention was to make this a purely spiritual blog and write about my experiences, beliefs, and thoughts on the Heathenry I practice in addition to musings on Paganism/Religion/Magick/Personal Beliefs & Practices as a whole. To me, this was a great idea at the time that was never realized due to whatever excuse I used not to sit down and write at the moment.

Then, sometime ago something happened. Countless years of negative coping because of my ignorance in thinking that I could deal with my problems on my own led me to spiral and I hit rock bottom. That was what that something was, rock bottom.  The path that led me there and the final blow to find rock bottom turned my life upside down in every way possible. There have been two good things that have come out of this believe it or not. The first one being my new outlook on life and second one being the realization that I need help and I cannot do it on my own because thinking I could got me into this situation in the first place.

The truth is the simple fact that I have been complacent in all aspects of my life - basically treading water in the open ocean with my job, my relationships, my wife and child, my family, and even my spirituality. There has been powerful bursts of effort but the energy never lasts and I let the current drag my back out into the open waters farther away from the land on the horizon.

This complacency is unacceptable to myself, my wife and child, my family, my friends, my spirituality, and the universe. It is time to pick up my Genya and get back to work!

So, this is still going to still be a spiritual blog about things like my personal practice and musings on all things related but it will also be through a lens of a man in recovery. The thoughts and experiences of a man seeking to quell the raging storm in himself, to find enlightenment, and to rebuild what has been destroyed.