Monday, February 24, 2020

...I've been through the desert...


Historically and in modern times it is a common practice for sages, shamans, seers, mystics, indigenous populations, and any other title you can give someone who follows a spiritual path to use psychedelic substances to enhance their work. This altered state of consciousness breaks down the practitioners personal barriers and the barriers of the universe so the practitioner can easily travel and connect with the universe in addition to their own inner Self. This is in addition to the increased connectivity and empathy with themselves, others, and the universe. There are unlimited counts of these experiences with/without the how/why published and unpublished. Though, a good place to start is from Albert Hofmann, Christopher M. Bache, P.h.D.., and Aldous Huxley.

Since the criminalization of psychedelics in the 1960's and 1970's its spiritual use has been forced underground which has limited it to individuals and small circles. There are some notable exceptions to this such as Native American Church. In addition, throughout the years there have been studies to show how some psychedelics, especially LSD can be used to treat various mental illnesses, trauma, and addiction.

Due to my spirituality I have been interested in this experience for sometime (especially since the events of this last year and some change) but I have never sought it out. I figured if it was my path to walk, the universe would provide the opportunity.

Well, the universe did provide the experience to benefit from the conscious alternating effects of LSD. The experience, was well; complicated, amazing, and mind opening. This sums it up nicely:


As the effects started to kick in space and time warped and became fluid or nonexistent so the 12 hours experience felt like an eternity and an instant at the time. Though time is just an illusion anyway. The best explanation of time I ever heard was this;

"...time is nothing more than fractal successions of consciousness strung together into what we call out existence..."
  
During my experience, a lot of things happened and I could probably write a book on everything I remember and how I felt but I think I will try to hit the main points;
  • Saw and experienced lots of pretty colors and sounds
  • Watched stationary items move and morph or into other items
  • Became one with the universe and its energy
  • Felt and watched the world breathe
  • Became a magnificent Buddha as I traveled inwards 
  • Had many out of body experiences
  • Got lost in the atoms
  •  Rode the waves of mental and emotional anguish
  • Connected with random objects and the sky and ground
  • Saw skeletons in the wood
  • Saw monsters in the dark
  • Saw fish in the sky
  • Connected on a deep and unfettered level with those who were with me on the journey
  • Experienced a shared consciousness with those who were with me on the journey
  • Played an intimate chess game with my Shadow
  • Ate static 
  • Watched the Chesire Cat dance around the screen for awhile
  • Rode the waves of physical, mental, and emotional euphoria
In summary, I was an explorer first and foremost on this journey. I let the energy of the universe push and pull in various directions and open random doors to the universe and explored just long enough before I choose a new door. I came away from this experience with four important things;

1. That I needed to get a specific tattoo (one of the ones I have been thinking about for years) with some additions to represent where I have been, where I am going, and to remind me of things every day. 

2. That I do not need to forgive myself for some of the things I have done that causes extreme guilt and self loathing (and have hurt other people deeply). I need to accept that these things needed to happen in one way or another for me to become who I am today and who I am becoming. I am not at this acceptance yet, but I am working towards it. 

3. Honestly, I just feel better about life in general. 

4. All the people who were with me during the journey shared very intimate connections. Think of the intimacy of being in ritual with someone but times it by 100. When you Self is completely exposed and you are one with the universe you also intertwine with the people around you and it creates a unique bond that is powerful.


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